more so, i just felt like i wasn't very good at teaching kids who didn't want to be taught. adults and kids who willingly enter into my theatre classes are fine... i communicate well with them... i tried very hard over the course of a year to be the kind of inspiring teacher who would light a love of the performing arts in these kids who have been labled "unteachable" -- and, no matter how hard i worked i never saw any results. the abuse which was heaped upon me at the hands of these very troubled kids started to make me bitter and resentful... and, i would rather find another job than end up being one of those teachers who kids have a negative experiance with... those impressions last a lifetime. i still have "issues" because one teacher told me that i was "stupid at math." i don't ever want one of my students to look back and say 'you know, ms. kate really fucked me up and convinced me that i sucked in theater.'
not that i EVER would say that to a kid... but, that was the road i felt like i was heading down.
and, i've been offered a directing gig which will compensate for the loss of income from teaching through may... at which time my theatre show will be opening... so i'm square.
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