Who am I ?

[jugglermatt1]

Well , my name is Matt , and Im not sure how to put any of this on paper . Theres too much you see , when to start , whats important , where have I been , what do I normally do with myself on a Wednesday afternoon for example ?
I lost my virginity at 17 to a 36 year old woman , is that who I am?
Ive spent six years on a bycicle touring round with a clown/juggling show , Is that my life ?
Ive drank in more different bars and cafes in Spain than the average Spaniard , am I an alcoholic
And all the reasoning that goes into all this , there cant be just one . And who are all you , are you the people that you say you are? .Surely you cant look at yourself through the eyes of other people , can you ?
No , Im sorry , Ill get back to you all , when Ive had a better look .

[jugglermatt1]

Oh , yes , and I would like to thank all those smashing people who have thanked me over my time . All those kids with horrible sticky hands who come with their coins , all happy to see the clown .All those applauses and laughs .All that adrenaline and fun . The freedom to play wherever I want , my boss being the amount of coins I have and the weather .All those free drinks and pizzas and flirting girls .I just cant understand why everyone doesnt want to be like me .After all , all my ovations are standing ones .

[jugglermatt1]

And another thing , a little boy only just big enough to walk , came up to me the other day , and said "youre a lion , roaarrr" and he made a big clawing motion .How funny is that , and im a leo also .In spain , the spanish use the word payasso , which can mean clown , or something like silly fucker . Sometimes in the street , the kids shout out payasso , and their mums tell them off .